I can't resist it!!!

I just gotta say

ahem lead singer of owlcity

--> adam young

anti-christ in good omens, collab between tp & Neil Gaiman

guess what??!!

ADAM YOUNG!!

I know it's stupid like telling ppl god turned the other way round is dog but

WOW!! hahahahahha

and i loove his voice..

TagTagTag

1_ 大名: C---- Y--
2_ 生日: 5th Feb
3_ 谁传给你的: Ming
4_ 生日想拿到什么礼物: to know the meaning of existence and where do ppl go after they die and to have someone whom i can really talk to
5_ 最近压力大的事: SPM
6_ 想做的事: curl up and die
7_ 有没有喜欢的人: Neil Gaiman~Gerard way~
8_ 跟谁出去最幸福+快乐: never was
9_ 如果你的好朋友吵架了,你会怎么做: i'm usually the cause
10_ 最想和别人去那里: neverwhere
11_ 圣诞节想做什么: don't celebrate it
12_ 最想跟谁庆祝圣诞节: refer to statement above
13_ 最近在做什么: wonder where has all my holidays gone
14_ 有几个兄弟姐妹: none
15_ 最喜欢的一首英文/华文歌: Right now? Time is running out-Muse
16_ 喜欢什么颜色: open to options
17_ 上厕所会不会冲水: open to options hahahahahah
18_ 喜欢男还是女生: open to options
19_ 最想大大声说什么: hahahahahahahahhahah
20_ 半夜敢不敢上厕所: depends, i feel safer at home..
21_ 你现在最恨谁: politicians
22_ 现在喜欢做什么: stare at dust particles so pretty..
23_ 睡相好不好看: i am never awake to see it but i am sure it is not a pretty sight
24_ 现在的时间: 10.3pm
25_ 是否厌恨传给你这卷子的人: not sure
26_ 体重多少: not telling
27_ 今天天气: damn hot, i know coz i washed my mum's car
28_ 如果忙完了你最想做什么: Sleep.
29_ 失眠后会怎样: never happens during school hols
30_ 你晚上睡觉会不会尿床: i dunno.. maybe it evaporates hahahahah
31_ 你晚上睡觉会不会流口水: yes
32_ 你有没有吃过夜宵: no
33_ 近期开心的事: stopped worrying about pmr results..
34_ 自由对你来说重要吗: not really, never go anywhere anyway..
35_ 你觉得在朋友当中谁最性感: none
36_ 你觉得你比较笨还是聪明: i am ignorant and so is everyone else hahahaahh
37_ 你比较喜欢爸爸还是妈妈: can't choose
38_ 你现在最想看到谁: neil gaiman
39_ 你爱看戏吗: no patience
40_ 你敢向你讨厌的人说"我恨你吗?: too common to meet them

++附加问题++
41_ 你打算几时结婚啊: when the time is right
42_ 你喜欢你的生活吗: no
43_ 相信塔罗牌吗: never tried
44_ 睡觉前所做的事情: dream
45_ 你的偶像: neil gaiman
46_ 你喜欢的季节: winter and autumn
47_ 最想去的地方: ireland, england, france
48_ 最讨厌怎样的性格的人: sickeningly optimistic
49_ 你会抽烟吗: no
50_ 你会喝酒吗: shandy counts? i tried wine, more bitter than sweet
51_ 你常哭吗: yes, but i won't tell you why because you won't understand
52_ 你常笑吗: sometimes
53_ 想睡到几点: forever
54_ 朋友和情人你会选谁: me
55_ 机会+命运你会选谁: Luck and hardwork
56_ 你很自恋吗: you tell me
57_ 你有穿耳洞吗: no
58_ 这问卷多不多: no
59_ 喜欢吃冰吗: yes
60_ 现在幸福吗: no
61_ 最在乎谁: me
62_ 房间里最重要的东西是什么: my books, my soft toys, my handphone
63_ 没有朋友你会怎么做: what i'm doing now
64_ 如果天使给你实现一个愿望,你想要什么: that all realm of consciousness end
65_ 这个问题废吗: no, it is a philosophical question too deep for mortals to comprehend
67_ 喜欢那个水果: apple, orange
68_ 最怕人家问你什么: do you want to get married? What do you want to be when you grow up? Are you confident you will graduate and lead a monotonous life?
69_ 喜欢下雪吗: if i'm indoors with a cozy fire and hot choco
70_ 下辈子要做什么: don't ask me that!!
71_ 希望再被tag吗: water bear, nick taught me this word..
72_ 没事做你喜欢等人吗: no
73_ 你吃饱了没有?： yes
74_ 看到問卷你的反應是?: hey, sheryl and boon didn't tag me..

-点到必填，不填代表你不尊重传给你的人和问卷
-请老实回答每一问题
-不能擅自涂改题目
-写完请点10 位小朋友，不可以不点
-完后请通知那10 位小朋友被点到的小朋友我最爱的你们～看你们幸运被我点到

1.Ming (done)
2.Shryl(done)
3.Boon(done)
4.Shan
5.Vanessa
6.WenJuin
7.somebody
8.nobody
9.anybody
10.You!, whoever the hell you are.. you're creepy...

Nicholas was....

older than sin, and his beard could grow no whiter. He wanted to die.

The dwarfish natives of the Arctic caverns did not speak his language, but conversed in their own, twittering tongue, conducted incomprehensible rituals, when they were not actually working in the factories.

Once every year they forced him, sobbing and protesting, into Endless Night. During the journey he would stand near every child in the world, leave one of the dwarves' invisible gifts by its bedside. The children slept, frozen into time.

He envied Prometheus and Loki, Sisyphus and Judas. His punishment was harsher.

Ho.

Ho.

Ho.
-Smoke and Mirrors, Neil Gaiman.

I just looove Neil Gaiman's work... They're so different..

Speaking of different,
wheeeeeeee today is christmas!!
Christmas is Today!!!
haahahahhahahahhah

And since I've been pretty untalkative
in recent weeks
I am quite positive
I can waste a few extra words of inane babble here

Neil Gaiman's work is kinda eerie in a weird, warped way that is positively delightful
(delightful?? who uses this word anyway?? In daily Conversation??)

Query, why do people of all ages go into a frenzy on this midwinter festival?
What makes thousands of normally level headed and sensible adults go absolutely gaga at the sign of snowman innards and gizzards swirling above their heads?
This 'snow' is so influential that even people here in Malaysia is affected by its mysterious power.

Or maybe its because everyone is getting presents.
Stuff that are..

are..

for free


hahahha

I am a Buddhist.
I am sure, I check every morning.
And I'm celebrating the birthday of a christian religious icon?
well, syeah, you get presents on his birthday!!
hahah
kidding
no I don't celebrate it, I don't get presents nor do i set up christmas trees.
I should be wishing you all a Happy Buddhamas but that would be plain stupid
because it is not His birthday.

I agree with Terry Pratchett's theory of Why Christmas is Celebrated
Okay, after a long and dark winter,
who knows what evil tricksy things might be alurking aroond the dark corners of the world
breeding, groowin' stronger with each taste and mouthful of darkness
so they dress up the trees with sparkly lights to light up the world
scream carols at the top of their voice to scare away the evil creatures
and build snowy sentries to guard their homes.

*note the nice mythic, celtic tone of the narration*
**I made up the part about the snowman, a round of applause please people**

I like my version better :-)

Last night, while I faithfully awaited my parents' return from across the sea
( they went to mainland penang)
I went channel surfing on my faithful remote control.
I a-spied a curious show christened Barbie in a Christmas Carol.
Funny people singing and dancing while decorating trees,
dancing around with very very pricey looking breakable ornaments
hint hint
of course no shattered glass or babi in sight

and then my eye fell upon a disney movie Tinker bell
(hahahha imagine my eyeball chasing tinker bell around neverland hahahahaha, if you don't get it refer to the line above, if you still don't understand it never mind, poor soul)
and at the end this bunch of rats with glowing red eyes were upon them

Had they look sleek and cool in black
*instead of looking a musty black as if they had been buried and had dug their way out of 6 feet under*
Paired with their glowing red eyes
and their pair of pointy front teeth..
You get the idea, bestseller, hollywood, silver screen..
if you don't get the idea: you poor soul!!!

that's all
tata
don't get used to it

Just for fun

Oh, hold me my sweet,
Don't let me go;
Look at me my sweet,
Oh, how your eyes glow..

But should you turn your head,
And look at another,
I shall rip off your head
And we shall be together
forever~

hahahah

The Internet

inter net

A net
Interlocking lives
Lacing through every aspects of today's world
Subtle, relentless
Was there ever a time in memory in which it had never been conceived
Silent, endless

The sky is the limit
and Beyond

But like a Hummingbird
fed artificial sugar
starving
bit by bit,
byte by byte,
eating to the verge of gluttony
but dying from within.

LOL?
LMAO?
Silent laughters
Mocking peals
Shadows of merriment
As warm and heartfelt
as a thrown knife in the blinding darkness

The internet
The sky is the limit
and Beyond

LOL... Lol... lol...

My Existance

I want to know

that everything

I say or do

Is making a difference

I want to know

that somewhere out there

Someone thinks of me

Before they close their eyes

With every breathe they take

I want to know

that I am the cause of a nightmare

or what keeps a nightmare at bay

the difference between the choice of

a lollipop or a candy-cane

Every little thing

I want to know about

Every little thing

Proves that I

Exist

Out of Touch

I feel lost, very much so

It's like being alone in a room filled with people

Everyone knows where they are going

While i wander aimlessly

Against the unstoppable river of time

I am lost

I feel like I am drowning

Everyone beyond my grasp

I hold on with all my might

With all the light and life there is within me

But than i realize

Why not end it all

Succumb to the cold embrace of slumber forevermore

Then I will be lost no more

*insert title here*

I have partially gotten over it but watching Nostradamus: 2012 first thing in the morning is probably not the best way to start off a lovely and hopefully eventful day.

The usual, the seas shall boilth overth, fishies shall cooketh, magnetic field weakening, chaos turmoil pandemonium cannibalism ensues darkness shall reign, mankind facing extinction, icecaps melting, radioactive rays of the sun, bbq party.

Definitely not the best way to start a day.

Anyway moving on to petty everyday yadayad, i am currently in KL in my cousin Nick's house, staying for a week, came on sunday, going home on following sunday.

Watched MJ this is it, really cool awesome nicely cheorographed zombies, still wonderful albeit weaker.

Discussion Segment for today ( Last blog was about The Point Of Religion)

What Makes Michael Jackson so Popular
A shroud of mystery and charisma enfolds this King of Pop, probably the reason ppl so readily believe in the child molestation case since it makes this mysterious figure more human. What exactly goes through his mind when he sings? What inspires him to write and sing songs like Billie Jean, Thriller? He certainly believes in fairytales nee Neverland ranch.

Moving on, Neil Gaiman is an awesome writer, sadly i have run out of his books..

For anyone who is aware of the Ajahn Brahm's case, thingy, I think you will agree with me when i say this whole thing is just rediculous. Why can't women be Bhikkus? male and Female is just an idea! it is just the body! What is wrong?! The entire foundation of this religion is the fact that all things are impermenent! nothing is permanent! Hypocrites!! Ajahn Brahm, rock on!

We went for dinner at Shogun last night, a Jap restaurant, great food, tried a sashimi, wasn't a fan. nice sushi, tempura, soup, etcs. it was a buffet style thing.


ah well, gtg, buh-bye now.

At long last....

Drum rolls yadayad skip the whole routine

Let it be known here,
loud and clear,
upon thy ear,
(or upon thy eyes since its here)
that i am pregnant.

no i tell a universe sized untruth

but let it stew

for aft this nothing shall seem as horrendous or foul

every news shall smell as roses (or look as roses, what thy heckth)

for i am a technophobe

not a biggie surprise since i've been absenth frometh thy scene for many a month

because to be honestly, brutally, painfully frank or in this case chiou yih with you, there is practically nothing 'up' or interesting happening right now in my life and i hate signing onto the blog and realizing for myself that i have no life.

Thus i have decided to enclose myself in a bubble where no information of any kind can remind me of my abnormality or open my eyes to see the freak i am.

Like, whatever.

not that anyone noticed that i have mysteriously disappeared from the face of the electronic world so maybe i should just curl up and die shall i? shall i????

after pmr i have been floundering around with no directions, no aims or goals nothing. its like life is finally over. For me that is.

and i have been informed that i shall die when i am 18 by a blockbuster. how optimistic my life is turning out to be.

i shall die, talentless, no contribution to the universe except for a mega sized carbon footprint to commemorate my meaningless existence.

I have prepared a list of What To Do Come 2012

1st phase
Try to find a way to save earth, after all humans are reasonable, intelligent creatures who will give up their lovely comfortably mundane lives to see reason for the sake of the greater good... and fail miserably in this attempt.

2nd phase
scream Why cruel world??? Why????

3rd phase
Fall into brain dead form of depression, droll on the carpets, go 'Waerghhh?!' when in contact with external stimulus, walk with knuckles dragged on the ground, the whole zombie packaged deal.

4th phase
blame past generation for the impending doom, mumble to oneself a little, go insane, cackle, talk evilly about others to pet (if no pets, talk to yourself, it works too) giggle uncontrolably, etc. Once tired of being insane proceed to phase 5.

5thPhase
not very sure actually... question the very foundations of religion? humanity? knock yourself out, only 3 more years to go.. haha

i did, you know, question the yadayad of religion.. how do you know its the right one? people have been seeking this Greater Truth for millenias what makes ppl so sure they have got it ? the truth or a truth? or do all religions hold a tiny piece of the puzzle to the Truth?
Whats the point?when we all have to end up dead? if there is a god, why does he or she have to send us down to earth for The Great Test? isn't heaven big enough? and Nirvana. why do we have to undergo suffering? why us? why are we important enough to get a ticket pass to infinite none existence? why everything? why?

lots of whys but not enough becauses.

if every bad deed counts, then the fact that i am breathing air, filling it with carbon d, killing 0.000001% of earth with every alphabet i type, isn't that bad? I'm killing little bits of ppl as i type, as i breathe. Killing, small yet significant.

I feel totally messed up.

i have got a hundred and one things to blog about but compared to this.. what does it matter?

small and insignificant.

signing out..

I lied...

Drum rolls please...

Argh! A conspiracy!

Okay, okay just couldn't resist it...

No, PMR isn't over yet

Yes, i am already blogging.

Now lets not state the obvious shall we..

Answer Question number 1 from Vanessa, whom i notice hasn't got down on her knees and begged me to blog, No, i don't leave lines to make my blogs look longer, i do not need these petty space leavers to make my blog look longer, it is already long enough, my dear. I just find that it goes easier on the eyes because i hate having to decipher squashed up words.

Question number 2 from no one in particular but i'll just state it anyway. Yes, I have got the results for this year's commonwealth essay writing competition and yes my name was in it but no i didn't make it into the top list. Aww... but i got highly commended anyway which is an improvement since i got commended last year. Yay, clap your hands and proclaim you do not believe in fairies!

Moving on, I reread Neverwhere by Neil Gaiman when i should be reading KH. Ooh.. Forbidden fruit or wood pulp tastes so much sweeter!! It was awesome! Mind-blowing! Weird! And in Shan's words Epic! Phew, what a total roller-coaster ride! I just love Mr Vandemar and Mr Croup eventhough they are the bad guys and are total murderers who would slice your head off and stuff their fingers up your severed neck and wriggle their fingers through your throat until your eyeballs fall out as soon as look at you (And they really said that in the book). Don't they have the most awesomest sense of humor? Swe-et!
And in the end when they got suck into a black hole, Mr Vandemar was holding onto a table, he shrugged, said 'buh-bye' to the protangonists and let go. Isn't he cute??? And Angel Islington, OMG what a diabolical mad angel! Why are the bad guys in Neil Gaiman's Neverwhere so darn unbelievably loveblely cute!?!?!

Oh well, thats all gotago, congratulate me asap.

Buh-bye

The Internet? Overated, much~

And since i totally suck at titles, i made A Statement..

* Outraged Roar from Shan*

hahah

ah, well..

For the general info, i am over with the editorial thing,

but no, i haven't forgiven or forgotten

let the accursed one's name never cross my lips or keyboard until the apology is accepted.

there.



Now, back to reality.

ARGH! PMR IS UPON US! FLEE! FLEEEEE FOR YOUR LIVES!!!

ARGHH! ARGH!!!

Ahem, there that's another statement.

And so, this is to be my last blog until Armageddon is over with and, god forbid, we are floating to heaven with a wifi service. And hopefully there will be ice blended choco latte~ Starbucks is heaven on earth


In reply to sheryl's blog about napoleon, sorry, he is a shorty but yes, isn't he dreamy?

but seriously his history is damn hilarious.

I mean, throwing all the passion into war-making because your wife isn't that into love-making with you? Master of the battlefield but, sadly, not the bedroom?

Is it just me or is it plain pathetic?

And when he was exiled, he got so bored, he decided to start a war. He is one seriously twisted dude to have such a hobby.

I mean, committing suicide and abandoning your ppl like that and when you get bored you start playing toy soldiers with life-sized figures, assault and battary included?

That is so sick. Furthermore, he got his people slaughtered in the battle-field because of a grudge agaisnt a general or something who once bested him! And in the attempt, more of his people got killed.

I guess its true. Peopl e will only remember you if you killed thousands of men or got them to get killed. Spilling gallons of blood -- surefire way to fame and glory.

On a brighter note, our science teacher pronounced Pope Paul as "Pop Paul".

hahahahah

And this gut-busting song patrick wrote when i watched spongebob squarepants:

Twinkle Twinkle Patrick Star!
I made myself a sandwich.
My mommy named it Fred.
It tastes like beans and bacon.
It smells like it's been dead!
Writing stuff is hard so I use a pointy pencil!
Pointy pointy pointy pointy pointy point!
P.U. whats that horrible smell?
(drum solo)
I have a head, it ends with a point!
Pointy pointy pointy pointy pointy point!
This song is over except for this line

You win this round,
Broccoli!!!

hahah, poetry has always brought tears to my eyes..

Ah, well.. this is the end of my last blog for the time being.

bye bye, so long, don't miss me too much

Muax!

depressing

Yeah, yeah, its been a long time..

*blows dust off blog*

nothing much to report...

Oh yeah..

..i didn't get into the english mag editorial..

yeah..

sigh..



it was depressing...


now i remember why i didn't want to blog..

even my hands are weighed down like lead as i type and as you read...

this is how i felt and still feel:

i can feel it, the bile rising up my throat, the bitterness lingers on my tongue,
i swallow but my mouth is dry.
i now know why they call it a heart break, my chest is heavy, so heavy i wish i could tear my beating heart out and just rele-ase me from the burden, so heavy that it hurts.
even when i think about it, it hurts so much that i cry, i cry for release.
and i cry, just to hear the sobs, to know i am alive, anything was better than just sitting there while the numbness envelopes me and my mind is blank.
ignorance is bliss but this wasn't the blissful ignorance that thoughtless poets wrote about, it was like being a compass, the needle spinning around pointlessly, spinning, spinning and simply could not find north. Lost, i felt lost.
and nausea, the bile rising up my throat, i thought i was going to vomit.

i cried the whole day.

i want you to know how it felt, to taste the bitterness of losing a dream.

of the suffering.

it was pure hell, but it was all real to me.

i know you might think this is stupid, just an editorial...

i wonder too, why do i feel so much pain and hurt?

and i have no idea...

but most of the hurt was because i thought i had friends

i shared everything with them

anything that i thought would help them

anything i thought they would enjoy

i thought i had friends

and i found out that i didn't

and i was hurt.

My own fault really, must be all that teen pop music about friends influencing me, all that woolly, soppy thinking

teen, pop princesses and idols should be shot at sight

they are dangerous weapons of mass destruction





-out-

What to say, what to write...

I've always sucked at making up titles. Ah well...

Okay, I pissed off spa a few days ago...

Major Achievement or what?!

spa is my really annoying english teacher, for the completely lost and clueless.

She asked me to read a passage and i was really mad at what she had been saying, so i used my 'Microsoft Sam' voice, check it out in control panel-speech. Based on 1st hand reports, she was really pissed off and asked wen shen to continue the passage.

Awesome...

ah well...

Can she track this down? Freak..

After the "Tears of an Apple" short story, i have been writing a few more, all titles thought out by Ming as yours truly really suck at titles.

_______________________________
This is Sheryl's favorite.

'All She Ever Wanted'

She stared with those pale blue eyes of hers, framed by a halo of golden, delicate curls, accusing and disappointed. Then, she slowly let her heat drop against her chest, a picture of sheer misery and defeat.

But it wasn't over yet, oh, no~ Her hand clenched into a fist, perfectly manicured nails dug fiercely into the pale flesh of her palm. Her cherry red lips wobbled, ever so slightly, as her pearly whites bit into her lips. With a toss of her head and a flash pure, fiery determination in her eyes, she bawls out "I wanna, wanna, wanna!"

Oh! All she ever wanted was a PSP, a diamond lollipop, a porsche, a barbie life-sized fairytale castle complete with turrets perfect for damsels in distress, a portable TV with sound surround system, a mansion with pink furniture and pink swimming pools, a pink my little pony helicopter complete with takeaway chef and a trip to the Tokyo Helo Kitty Hospital. That was all she ever wanted. Was it too much to ask?

-End-

Haha, in the beginning, she was portrayed as an angel, but she isn't an angel, is she?

_________________________
Unearthed Clandestine

Wazat? -End-
_____________________
The flame of the Pyre

Hi~ Me pyre. I got fire on me. Hey, hold on... Ah! I got fire on me! Argh! Argh! Ar-
-End-
___________________
My mum and Vanessa's favorite.

When Watermelons Swim

The average watermelon. A mysterious fruit with hidden depths. With great rolling ability, this sinister fruit slowly rolled away from the hawker hawking his wares. Steady... Steady... The sea looms in the horizons. An orchestra started up in the background, the violins screeching eeriely *like in those horror movies*. Oh dear, what is our heroic melon to do? Tumbling, rolling, inexorable, unstoppable. Suddenly, a horryfic horror movie high pitched femine scream was heard when...

Splash!

It swims!

-End-

______________________

Teh Tarik

I was born amidst the chaos and hubub of an average Kopi Tiam. Suddenly, the clouds parted and i heard a great voice in the sky. It spake unto me "Teh Tarik, Kau, Kau!"

Ah! It must be none other than my creator! I relished the moment of religious ecstacy.

Then, he raised me up, higher than an eagle, think ball of crazed fur, then he turned me over. I was sucked down by a powerful force. Ah! My short life flashed before the eyes i never had. Farewell, cruel world, life is short! But lo and behold! I was saved by a tin mug and was tossed up and down again. Finally, my ordeal was over for i must have been found worthy. I was all frothy as my maker threw me into a glass. I am slowly raised towards a pair of lips like bananas framed by a moustache. I wonder what further quests await me.

___________________________

I kinda like this one

Registration on Reality

Robert shoved his way out the subway. He was in a hurry and he simply could not afford to be late. Time was not a luxury he had. He fought his way out the Underground, pushing against the tide of people, marching inexorably like war troop against the rebels of the mundane.

Robert did not stop to glance at his watch like the ameteurs in films.

He did not stop when he knocked over a crate of oranges.

He did not falter when he fell face first into mud.

No, he was in a hurry, a battle against time, and stupid everyday things were not going to stop him.

Finally he reached his destination, disheveld and muddy. He arrived, panting, at the counter.

"Robert Pratster, here to renew his registration." he weezed.

The austere woman behind the counter glared at him over her glasses.

"Overdue. Too late, Robert Pratster." intoned Ms. Mort.

"Pl... Please!" implored Robert. "One more chance!"

"Too late." repeated Ms. Mort dispassionately. "Robert Pratster, your registration on reality is expired."

At that, Ms Mort swung a scythe, bringing it down at Robert.

"No-" screamed Robert, disintegrating into numbers.

Ms Mort sat down and peered over her counter.

"Next."

-End-

_____________________________

The world is your oyster.

Why would i want to eat a slimy sea creature?!

-End-

_____________________________

Ulquiorra versus Apple

Ulquiorra stood there coolly. His ivory pale skin, his tear drop stain across his cheeks, his marble greek-god like stature. He is perfection. He slowly pulls his sword from his scabbard, the blade catching the dying rays of the sun. He swings his blade gracefully, bringing it down in a swift slash. An apple before splitted into half. Game over.

-End-

__________________________

I also like this one

Should've said No

They asked if I wanted to grow up, to be the first person on the sun, to be the leader of civilization. I wanted so much to fulfill their unfulfilled dreams, to be what they wanted me to be. Then, they educated me about taxes, about the injustice in the world, of gad-forsaken places and pointless wars. I do not wish to be educated about taxes. And now, I grow up to pay taxes, to fight a pointless war against the injustice in this god-forsaken world. I should've said no, should've said no, said no, no, no-o...

___________________________

I like this one too.

Fearless

Amy stared at the cupboard. Whisperings, whisperings, she could hear them coming from the cupboard. When I count to ten, everyting will be alright. Still she heard them.

Face your fears, girl. You are fearless, nothing is in there. Yet, she was terrified about the 'nothing' in 'there'.

She wrapped the blanket around herself and crept slowly towards the cupoard.

'I am fearles, fearless, fearless' the mantra repeating over and over again in her head.

Amy flung the cupboard door open.

An ear-splitting scream rebounded in the house to be cut short by a sound like the slamming of a door.

Amy was never seen again.

Sometimes, when you face your fears, they don't go away. You only see your fears even more clearly and they can see you too.

-the end-

Lovely bedtime story.

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Ming's favorite.

Elliot and Mars Bars

Elliot trudged in the dark streets of London, hands in his pockets, back hunched against the cold winds of December. He needed to have it but he was broke. He had no choice but to steal it. He roamed around London but couldn't find it. He needed it.

Delirious and tired, he hid in an alley, awaiting a victim. When she walked into the alley, he pushed her against the wall and rasped in her ear "Gimme all your Mars Bars"

"He.. Here, take it." She shoved two Mars Bars into his hand. He gave a roar of triumph and munched away at the Mars Bars.

"I know what you are" whispered the girl.

Elliot looked up into her eyes, madness was apparent in his eyes and his mouth was smeered with sticky, melted chocolate. "Are you afraid?"

"No," whispered the girl. " I think it is cool and emo to be with a Marsbar-pire and I wanna be like Bella. When are you going to compose a masterpiece in my name? When are you going to bring me tree climbing like Edward in the romantic scene in Twilight? Anyways, I expect you to be as perfect as Edward and be my boyfriend because you have eaten my Mars Bars."

Elliot stared at her. He ripped her head off.

"I like blood too, you know," whispered Elliot, licking blood off his lips.

-End-

Hahahahahahah

There are more, of course, writen by yours truly.

But i need to go eat my dinner.

Please ignore spelling errors and grammatical errors.

Please leave comments.

thank you for reading.

ta.

Long Time no Blog

Lazious, not me fault

okay, i went to a workshop recently, 'creative' writing workshop.

Man, was i duped.

they were trying to make reporters out of us.

captions, headlines, articles, opinion articles, seriously. Creative, much?

i admit, the first activity which involved mind-mapping what we got from an orange was pretty fun. We peeled the orange with our bare hands and ate the sweet, juicy insides, mwahahahahahaha.

The rest was boring.

Pure, unadulterated boredom.

But on a lighter side, I met some people, Natasha, Shaun, Atiyah, Farhan, Syira, V and Shahir. Only got Nat, Shaun and Atiyah to speak up, the rest weren't really communicative. Ah well, the carnival called Life.

I would like to share a few headlines i made up.

Goldilocks:
Blonde European Kleptomaniac Discovers New Species of Porridge-Consuming Bears

Cinderella:
Mistreated Maid Injures Foot Trying to Wear Glass Slipper, in A&E.

haha

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Now, I shall talk about how much i miss Terry Pratchett.

I mizzzzzz him sooo much...

Discworld has destroyed my appetite for other books, leaving me empty, sucking out my very soul...

How cruel can it be???!!

________________

Once again, so sorry for the late congrats wishes to Shan.

Good luck!

__________________________

Tomorrow is Sheryl's bday!

Everyone give her a bday hug!!!
_________________________

Ming's bday is coming up.

I am giving her a mud cake

hahahahaha
______________________

Finished Neverwhere (have i said that before?), awesome but discworld ranks number one forevah!

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Ming wanted me to post stories, she gave me a title-- Tears of an Apple

Here is the first thing i wrote:

"Apples logically do not have tears. That is illogical. I presume that the tears indicate to the juice of an apple. I like Apple juice. Apple juice is nice. But so is orange juice. Pineapple juice is pretty good. I like grape juice too. It is nice.

The end."

She didn't like it.

Here is another one:
"New york city aka the Big Apple is having a normal day. Batman is trying out his new batmobile. Taxi drivers cussing at inanimate traffic lights. Starbucks selling lattes at the speed of light. Yep, definitely a normal day.

Or so the bustling anthill of life thought. Deep beneath the roots of this antheap of a metropolis, a maniacal mass murderer to be stalked deep into the sewer of the big city. He heaved a ton of dynamite in his arms and burned the whole lot. Kaboom! The sewers exploded! Feaces covered the big apple. God-knows-what water flooded the city. Chaos ensued. Screaming humans lost their heads in the chaos. Literally. And so the Big Apple shed tears.

The end."

______________________

Here is a Love Poem i would like to share:

Cherry Blossoms in the Breeze,
Carp fishes Gasping for Breath,
Black Crows Dropping Dead from the Sky,
Overturned Beatles Struggling To Get Up,
Cocroaches Squashed to Death on the Floor--
I like You.

hahahaahahahahhahaha

thats all for now

tata

Michael Jackson=Dancing Zombie, now a reality?

Not exactly a reality, of course, I haven't seen him bogeying around like the zombies in his mv yet.

Not yet that is

Mwahahahahah (Crashing of organ chords, lightning flash, the works)

Anyway, Ming told me the news and I was absentmindedly going 'oh, yeah?'

I mean, Michael Jackson? King of Pop? MJ??

Come on, he can't be dead, momentarily unwell or unavailable perhaps, misplaced even but DEAD? He is a legend for crying out loud! He can't be dead! No way...

I grew up listening to MJ...

He was like a persistent background noise in our lives which we had gotten used to, pedophile charges, comeback of the century, selling off Neverland, etc

He cannot be Gone just like that

Unfortunately, it was hard to ignore the fact that he was dead, what with hitz.fm going 'Tribute to MJ King of Pop' every few sec and playing his songs on reruns.

A legend died just like that, without a warning, gone.

*sigh* Life is a Brief Candle, MJ.

RIP
Michael Joseph Jackson,
The King of Pop

August 29, 1958 – June 25, 2009

Ming says he is cute, too bad you died MJ, but maybe it was the only way for you to get attention.
__________________________


Actually, I am waiting for Karuwe, Yian Thin and Sheryl to get online, we had a project meeting. Where are you??? We were suppose to meet at 4 and now its 10 past five!

Argh! I have a tuition in 55 minutes!

On to lighter news, I finished American Gods, Neil Gaiman pretty good, unexpected twist at the end but I thought it ended with a flop, didn't have a grand ending, left me a bit puzzled.

Reread Good Omens, Neil Gaiman + Terry Pratchett join venture, still love it. Wish they would make it a movie. Who should be Aziraphale? Or Crowley? Tom Cruise = Crowley? Jude Law=Aziraphale? Keanu Reeves as either one of them??? I've seen fan arts but i wish Aziraphale didn't have to wear glasses... What about Adam Young??? If only Daniel Radclieffe was younger... Ah, well

Rereading Jingo.. Sam Vimes ^^

Still addicted to Terry Pratchett as you can see

Harry Potter vs New Moon
Mmmm... I'll pass both, not interested.

Billions of twilighters and potties cry out with rage

Ah, boil your heads

Can't get the song Natural Disaster out of my head

~Natural Disaster~

My minds all over the place this week.

My mum just invited me out for swimming, she forgot I have tuition later. =.=

Jason Mraz^^

Aziraphale^^

Crowley^^

Weeee^^

I was just catching up with the blogs I've missed.

Nothing much

Where are they???? The project is not going to complete on its own!

Oh yeah, before i forget

Shan, have you got my book, Maskerade? Just want to make sure.

Sheesh, I should start a library, overdue: RM10 per day

Vanessa, Hanah montana and oddly enough broccoli, weird blog, piano concert

Ming, new clothes, went to queensbay

Sheryl, new interest in violins and its players, gothic landscapes

Shan, project breakdown, mayple story, mj

Boon, karate, Math, groaning

that sums it up.

I wish I could write like Sheryl, my writing style is like pasar malam buy one free three, boring bread and butter you get the picture. I lack a certain continuity in my writing.

*sigh* that's life

signing off, gloomily.

wahahahhahahhaha....

....hahahahahahah... *sniffles* hahaha...

argh, can't stop laughing...

I just checked out this really funny site called uncyclopedia
http://www.uncyclopedia.wikia.com/

I saw this review or something about twilight which sheryl had copied from the site

hahahah, couldn't stop laughing..

and there was this axis of evildoers which included oprah winfrey, mickey mouse, teletubbies *haahahahh* etc
the whole list is at the very botto, of this page:
http://uncyclopedia.wikia.com/wiki/KKK

this is funny too
http://uncyclopedia.wikia.com/wiki/Evil


excerpt from that page:

Mr. Sauron, located in Leavenworth, Kansas' supermax, was slightly harder to get an interview with. As he has a heavy accent (a sort of creepy whispering), I had to have an interpreter accompany me. Sauron is serving two hundred thousand life sentences, and in spite of the language barrier, gave me an eye-opening interview concerning the nature of evil and his thoughts surrounding his highly publicized trial.

Sauron: "...Why? WHY DIDN'T I HAVE A FENCE AROUND MOUNT DOOM? Huh? Who the- Oh, hello Ms. Walters... or can I call you Barbara?"

Walters: "Oh, Barbara is just fine. Tell me, Mr. Sauron: when did you start practicing evil?"

Sauron: "When I was just a little evil entity, my mom always told me that Middle Earth was just waiting for my new type of management style. I didn't have a good relationship with my mom, and I think that helped a little with the evil, too. If you're going to be an evil person, make sure that there's no stupid little way to completely destroy you. That was a big problem for me."

Walters: "What did you think of your trial?"

Sauron: "Well, as everyone knows, we had to relocate to find an unbiased jury of my 'peers'. What a shock that they found me guilty. I guess that I shouldn't have freaked out when the cops came to my tower, that was bad judgment on my part."

Walters: "What are you doing now?"

Sauron: "I'm part of the kitchen staff. My biographer Mr. Tolkien didn't say much about my cooking ability, but I hold my own here. Nobody's tried to [do anything bad to] me in the shower yet, so I must be doing okay. I made Crêpe Suzette for the staff last night."

Walters: "How did they turn out?"

Sauron: "They were meant to transform the wardens into Nazgul but they turned into seagulls instead. I guess I botched the recipe."

hahahaha

and also see evil scheme to take over the world

just check it out, it is hilarious

_________________________________

Before i saw this website, my day was boring and uneventful.

Deleted my 325 unread e-mails

they were getting on my nerves.

realised i missed many friend's birthday

oops

sorry, my bad

Happy very-much-belated Birthday to Gui Gui

Happy very-much-belated Birthday to Wei Pheng

Happy very-much-belated Birthday to Rini

Happy very-much-belated Birthday to Michael

Happy very-much-belated Birthday to Wai Hau

Happy very-much-belated Birthday to Sally

I know, Sorry, i am a shit of a friend, sorry

See? special colour! With italic fonts!

Pretty, no?

-End of Transmission-

mwahahaha, i am posting a blog on a school day during school hours!

first thought that looms into your mind:

WalaoA, she ponteng!

those that know what happened yesterday, ie Thursday, would know what this conspiracy is about.

mwahahahahha *lightning flash, thunder, organ played with melodramatic tune*

actually, the truth
is that I twisted
my ankle
during
PE
..

*wee, cone shaped formation! too much time on my hands, haha*

anyway that thingy happened and with the grace and art I posses in me, I dislocated two bones in my right foot.

One was on the left side of my right foot, the one at the curve or arch of the foot, and the other the right side of my foot, which is also the one linked to my little pinkie toe, and so rendering my right foot useless.

anyway, i can remember it as if it was yesterday, and it did happen yesterday, lol

I changed into my pe t-shirt, Constantini aka blue house rules plus it has the coolest name of all the other houses hahah, and i was about to select a blue racket when ming emmerged from the sports' storeroom with a basketball. I was all I want to play badminton but i changed my mind anyway because I didn't want to dirty my shoes so as I can reuse it next week XP.

So we crossed the road to get to the basketball court and we were throwing hoops while Ming and Ruo Qi were discussing thier romantic social life. I was behind them by 3 hoops, I only got 2, so I was desperate.

I aimed and leapt for the extra boost. It rebounded off the hoop. I fell with a cry of defeat, not really but oh well it needs dramatic elements to awaken more emotions in the reader or whatever bullsh*t, my right foot landed first in an awkward position and as i succumbed to gravity, the extra weight twisted it and it gave way and i landed in a kneeling position, no kidding.

It looks something like this:


except it didn't look like we were doing a rain dance like it does in the picture.

It really hurt.

So i just knelt there and they were all asking me are you alright? Yeah, I am fine, I just landed on my right ankle, I am fine.

But i just asked them what do you think? Do you think i am okay?

So i hobbled to the bench at the side and started singing about benchwarmers and their poor miserable lives. I can't remember it anymore but it sounded darn funny at that time.

the pain slowly went away but it still constantly reminded me of its presence with a dull, throbbing pain.

Then, i dismissed it as a minor twist, nothing at all, it will go away, eventually.

So, I went to my duty post, two bridges on the 2nd and 3rd floor, stop students from crossing it, and found out my duty partner was absent. Dang. So, I spent the 20 agonizing minutes stumbling up and down the stairs to stop them from crossing. Some of the b*stards even tried crossing on the 3rd floor then ran down to the 2nd floor to cross it. I got there in time, barely, and stopped them and they were all confused: What ? aren't you that prefect who stopped us upstairs? I thought we saw you limping! How could you get here so fast??!

Actually, I half fell and stumbled down those stairs.

After that, the pain got worse. No matter what position i placed my right foot in, it protested in bouts of pain and ache, nothing was good enough for it. Finally, Jia Ying got me an ice pack to put on it. It didn't improve matters much, instead my foot went numb and i couldn't move it anymore. The pain persisted. Me: Nil, Pain: 2

I decided I couldn't take it anymore, but there was only another 30 minutes till school was out. I decided to skip school tuition and wanted to go down to call my parents. I bunny hopped on my left foot and i was panting halfway to the stairs. I asked ming to make the call for me.

When we were dismissed, ming and karuwe voluntered to carry my stuff, thanks guys, you helped me a lot. Mok shen ren helped out with the load too. I hopped on my left foot from the 4th floor to the foyer. On the way down, I was greeted with cries of, why is that prefect not wearing a sock? She injured her foot, can't you see, dummy? and why isn't anyone carrying her ala damsel in distress? Ming said it was more likely for someone to lug me to the foyer like a piece of furniture. Nice, moral support, what i really needed.

I got there, everyone staring at that prefect hopping around on one foot.

Karuwe, Ming and mok shen ren stayed back to watch over me apparently afraid that i would be kidnapped at my weak state. haha, how i am laughing deep down.

Anyway, I would like to take this opportunity to, again, express my deepest gratitude towards them, Mok shen ren, karuwe and ming, for their help, it was more then I could expect. No, ming, no group hug. A shake of the hand is fine.

We went to visit two chiropractors, one was on leave and the other wasn't practising it anymore, I think he is dead de, he was pretty old the last time i saw him and that was 5 years ago. Talk about broken mirrors and black cats. I was moaning about being cursed and doomed to limp till the end of earth as we know it, when a family friend suggested we visit a chiropractor in farlim which she said was pretty good. after what seemed like a wild goosechase we found the entrance of the facility. ( we could find the backdoor but not the front door. apparently there was a tiny hallway in the middle where all the frontdoors were and all the doors outside were backdoors. weird, huh?)

The guy pressed a few points on my foot, asking me which point hurt, and he pronounced my injury as the 'superman' injury. he says it occurs when you lend after a flying jump or something like that. He massaged my foot then bandaged it. Here's a picture of what it looks like now:
He said i will be able to walk like normal after a few weeks, that is a long time to wait..

Now, I am stumbling and shuffling around the house and I didn't go to school because my dad said i needed rest.

What if they say I ponteng? I don't have an MC cause they aren't actually medical pratitioners, they are chiropractors!

ah well..

When I said i needed more excitement in my life, I did not have this in mind.

Oh well, since I have uploaded pictures from my camera to my computer, I might as well put some pictures here..


This is the neighborhood cat, surveying its empire from her personal flowerpot.








This is my dog, ong lye, and for those who don't understand hokkien, it means pineapple. He hates cats and barks at them to clear out of his territory. They take it as a pleasant background music and it is very demoralizing for him. We don't talk about it.






This is my cousin, Nick or as he likes to be called nowadays Karu. His full name is Karunika and no he isn't japanese but he wished he lived in Japan so he could go car racing every night. I took this picture when I went down to KL to celebrate his dad's birthday. Those cup cakes are birthday cake replacements.






This is my cousin, Jeanne, and her boyfriend, Eric. I used Sepia coz she was upset that he was going back to London. Besides, she might want to show them to her children and they can go: Wow, you guys were technological dinosaurs last time.





I'ld like to
end it
here.
ta.

nil, zilch, nada title

hiya

i left off my previous blog at the training camp.

So i woke up at 5am (practically too late to be night, too early to be dawn) went to school.
I was in charge of food and drinks along with another 4 students.
An important responsibility as a whole camp of bottomless pits for a stomach (teenage boys) were staying over at school for two nights. Our larder got raided often. the only pro for the job was we got a free-flow of icy orange juice. sweeeet

pretty boring but my favorite part of the camp was on the last day we were simulating a *kcehc tops*(read the other way round, there might be spies). Cool. almost all the stuff i hid weren't found, in fact a correction pen got stuck and we couldn't get it out. it is still somewhere out there. Here is a dialogue of what we did:

*as the juniors came towards the class*
Mr. Tuck aka the incredible tuck: class, we are going to write an essay on how to prevent swine flu (A H1N1)--it is also written on the blackboard--

Student A: teacher, what is 'A hini'?

Mr. T: *scratches head* eh? i don't know wor... Don't need lah! *crosses off A h1n1*

Student B: teacher! teacher! what is swine?

Mr T: aiya, don't know lah! *crosses off swine* okay, now we shall write an essay on how to prevent flu!

Student A: teacher, what is flu?

Mr T: ah.. aiya.. ah..

Student B: Teacher! teacher! i know! flu is the past tense for fly!

Mr T: correct! something like that!

*end of transmission*

haha, it was funnier at that time.. Joshua also shared a remix of an old classic with us:

I love you,
You love me,
let's get together and kill Barney,
With a big gun *bang**bang*
barney on the floor,
no more f-ing dinosaur.

haha..
pretty boring stuff, huh?
oh, well
school reopened, exam results dished out, revolting stuff.
chinese, same as ever, border-line 78
Bm, totally dead and gone, 71
english, standard jatuh dah {varified by ming, sheryl, ms. saw, weng sheng~me doomed}91
science, unexpected ace in the hole, 91
Civ, pretty good, 98
Moral, pretty good, 94
Art, border-line, 80
kh, so-so, 84
Geo, so-so, 84
History, so-so, 88
Math, dead and gone but uncomfirmed
what else? can't recall
average around 84%
dead and gone
done with
wahooni
zilched
habis
nil
0

wow, it makes a nice cone shaped formation.
Read shan's blog: exams
read boon's blog: exams, depressing
read ming's blog: still miley cyrus
read sheryl's blog: exams
read vanessa's blog: exams, birthday~very very sorry, an infinite source of appologies, happy belated birthday!
that's all? 4/5 about exams..

today:
got attack by colony of red ants during essembly.
grieved over english results
laughed about ming's guest list for her wedding
got tired of ming gushing over celene (now aka gerbil yellow @ yellow gerbil, lol)
their child's future name is mustard
went to ming's house
taught her how to play sims
she is still not a fan
accidentally asked about boon's result
sorry

today too tired to make any readers laugh

bye bye

tata

nit

wooo, cone shaped!

I can't think of any title so i'll just shut up now..

it's been a long time since i last blog and Vanessa has been all why aren't you blogging?! You can't do that! it 's against the law or whatever. Here Vanessa, this is for you, now quit bugging.

Here are 5 reasons i hardly blog anymore:
1. Lazy. My computer and modem are ganging up on me. I need to, at least, restart my computer twice for it to operate properly or it will jam up and lag on me. I swear, my modem KNOWS when i stare at the connection lights to come on and i goes all shy and i have to turn it off then turn it back on again WITH a piece of paper covering the lights and turn my head directly not facing it, THEN only will it come on. Sheesh, talk about shy.
2. Inferiority complex, watever that is, am not really sure but i think it foots the bill, when i come to blog, i see everyone else feeling their blogs up with their amazing holiday escapades and it just widens this deep empty massive black hole hollow inside me and i'll tell myself for the umpteenth time: Get a life. Yes, guys, your blogs just make my day. haha, just joking but that hollow thingy ain't a joke. Ah, who cares.. i am probably the only one who reads my blogs.
3. Too tired + no time. I'd rather play the sims 2 and destroy puny little lives the way my life is headed. By the way, for the lives i am not destroying, two sims of my creation, Lucas and Lux Nightorne, have given birth to a baby named Lionel. You know when a person who places her hopes and dreams on a programmed character of a fake world, she has no social life.
4. sheesh, running out of firm, strong points for this pointless one sided debate. ah, well, it's pointless anyway. Blogs are harder to convey ones exact feelings at the time, you know. You get stronger emotions during, say, an argument. You get really heated up at that time but once you chill, the anger, the emotions don't seem to be there anymore and you just get embarassed about the stupid things that you said. ah well, you get the picture. So it is actually easier to just convey in person about what happened etc.
5. the blog is a dangerous place {minor point}, apparently you can get expelled for saying stuff here. A guy from some prefect board of some school which i currently can't remember in case anybody from that some school ratted out to the HM and i get expelled, anyway, that some guy wrote on his blog, expressing his discontentment about that aforesaid some school, which i am not actually saying that i am, and he got into big trouble for. I dont know what kind of trouble but i don't really want to find out, i am too young for that kind of thing, it should have PG18 or something.

There Vanessa-in-case-you-are-reading, happy? a detailed list of reasons, no?

I went to this ASEAN scholarship thingy test on 6th June which is last Saturday. Math test real hard but a guy sitting next to me was all smiles and stated that it was okay standerds. Maybe i am the one with the problems, not singapore. But it is over-rated, Shan, really, honestly. And i swear they were trying to sabo us. It was so cold my fingers went numb and i couldn't write. They should have asked us to bring arctic weather gear, like ear-muffs and stop-nose-from-freezing-over-thingy and gloves and boots.

Today was our Harmonica Band's Training Camp. Awesome. But they sure are overly enthusiastic when they come to balloons. They must be some sort of main source of income for the rubber tapping industry. Great job on the overall though. They had this great idea for the station game, where everybody were getting hot and tired and thirsty, it was this watermellon eating competition. They give this time limit and each member is only allowed a scoop at a time. Unhygenic but refreshing. Unfortunately, i dropped more than i ate.

Tomorrow is our prefect's Training Camp. I am suppose to wake at 5:30am, just like school day except we dont stay until 7pm during school days. The guys get the fun stuff, though. They stay over at school and watch Wolverine, X-men: Origins before lights out. Awesome.

I caught a glimpse of Ming's blog, ranting about beautiful people with talents, ie miley cyrus. Piece of advice, gal. That's life. Gotta accept it. This is what i tell myself each day. This is why i get up each day instead of overdosing on sleeping pills and just closing my eyes and drifting off to play with the fairies. haha..

I've finished all terry pratchetts books and all other books are pale and boring in comparison. I can't believe he can't write anymore. I am going to miss him. I think i am addicted to his books. Wish they have rehabs for these kinds of addiction.

Oh yeah, almost forgot, how dare I? I watched star trek! AWESOME, man!! Spock was so cool and that Russian guy- wicter, inwincible- gawd, he was so cute! Not cute as in handsome, though he is cute in that sense to, but cute as in funny... haha.. And scottie is cute too. the part where spock totally lost it and strangled kirk, after that scottie was all I like this ship! i laughed out loud at that part. in fact, i lol at the show in the cinema many times. They are all so cute! haha.. Spock, Zachary Quinto, need i say more? He is such an amazing actor! He was awesome as Sylar, needless to say, marvelous as Spock. love him.

Oh, well. Got to go or i won't wake up on time.

tata, thanks for reading whoever you are.

Ulquiorra

Let us now share a minute of silence in memory of Ulquiorra Schiffer






























































































































he disintegrated into dust..
like a vampire
let's us cross our fingers and pray that he manages to regenerate again

Ulquiorra Schiffer, never forgotten

man, busy week, busy week...

okay, firstly, it is my own fault..
I had to catch up with tons of homework that i have neglected in the past
coz all of a sudden, all the teachers want them and are coming after us like alongs
maths, chinese, bm, english, the works
and seni
still can't get the hang of sketching
have to hand it up on friday...
the notice board has to be up by 2pm, friday
and i am stuck between a rock and a hard place
oh well...
anyway, ms. hong and ruo qi drew a picture of some animals supposedly representing some st. john members
I redrew the ones kar wye, ming and i liked..
It looks kinda like a cute animal planet version of the unusual suspects' mugshot
i named the hedgehog hitsu and ming got pissed off coz she is currently insane about hitsugaya in bleach
I DREW HITSU, MING, AND I CAN NAME HIM ANYTHING I LIKE
besides, they share the same hairstyle
ming likes the zebra while kar wye likes the hamster

i still feel that i did not deserve the essay writing competition 1st prize
Weng sheng's was far more superior than mine
and sheryl can obviously write better than me (you just have to read her blog to know it, mine is like hawker street writing style compared to hers), anyone with half a brain would have noticed that
i just don't deserve it

I went to the chung ling high school chinese orchestra concert on saturaday with my mum
I wasn't really interested but my mum really wanted to catch it coz we missed the one by heng ee and she wouldn't go if i didn't go
oh well
so we got to dewan sri penang at 8 and parked in a back alley
we paid a guy rm2, eventhough he was obviously an illegal parking attendent, and got seats at the extreme left of the last row
some of my classmates, who are members of our school's chinese orchestra were all
cy?! what are u doing here?! why didn't u go to our school's concert???
i felt a little guilty but i had no transport
honest
the concert was suppose to start at 8pm.
The hallmark of a chinese-hosted event is to never start on time
coz the vips are always late
no well-respected vip will be caught dead as the earliest at his own funeral
they can afford to be late
anyway, the night started off with drums
they played something about a tiger mauling a bull or ox
somthing like evil vs good
the ox wins
poor tiger
anyway, one of the players dropped his drumstick halfway through the song
heng ee 1, chung ling -1
muhahahahahahahahha
the rest of the night consisted of various songs which were pretty good to my unprofessional ears
but my classmates were going on and on about what they did wrong etc etc
the music sounded a little too harsh and rowdy but chinese music's like that..
i thought it was pretty good as the songs had their peaks where they pull you up and down on an emotional roller coaster ride
but still nothing but a shadow compared to how real life gives u a heart attack with pop quizes and long 'forgotten' homework that has to be handed up in 5 minutes.

i still think pn saw over estimates me
she called me a 'kind, helpful' girl in class today
probably swallowed all that trash ming wrote about me in her poem in English 1
Our oral test drama/play lost to fang yi's group
when it was time to vote, pn saw was all
who is the best group? cy's, right? right?
people hate favourtism
so i lost by 4 votes
a little disappointed coz i had great hopes in my script
i thought it was pretty good
no, i know for a fact that she over estimates me
I hate having to live up to ppl's expectations

today, a bunch of salespeople came to our school during assembly to promote their e-dictionary
had to stand for another extra half hour
then puan ooi rattled on for another half an hour about how we shud not backstab frens
yadayad
sheesh
anyway, we got flyers about the e-dictionary
there were smiley ppl at the front of the flyer
anyone who knows me would know i can never resist a nice fresh face to doodle on.
the result: Effects of gangsterisme
perfect for our NIE project
aren't they cute?
sheryl, ms hong and karuwe just couldn't stop laughing
ming just stared at me through slit eyes and shook her head
oh well
some ppl just don't have a sense of humour
and i achieved this effect using only a red and blue ball pen
awesome huh?

we got our class placing today
i got 3rd place
in class and the entire form
coo... i never saw this one coming..
shucks..
now i owe ming and karuwe a baskin robbin's ice cream
me and my big mouth
i still cannot twist my brain around the fact that i got 3rd place in heng ee high school, form3
i cannot absorb or digest this alien fact
i am still probably in shock

Today was boooriing...
i woke up late this morning cause my alarm clock boycotted on me..
i usually let it ring on for 20 minutes b4 officially waking up so i don't blame it.
i ended up eating my breakfast on the bus
then i fell asleep almost immediately
i got up at the round about just outside school and quickly put on my tie
stupid new rules..
today is wednesday sooo.. that meant assembly
mr goh usually choose assembly for a walk down memory lane
weirdly enough, mr goh was not overcame by nostalgic memories today and assembly ended 1/2 hour earlier
then we had to fall in
damn..
got lectured about duties and responsiblities
guru penasihat practically screamed at the victims
sure happy i wasn't the victim today
but i was damn close to becoming one
then, we returned to class 1/2 an hour later anyway
lessons resumed as usual
i got first place in essay competition, weng sheng 2nd, sheryl 3rd
received RM 15 prize money
yay!
gonna spend it on starbucks chocolate ice blended
hope they didn't shrink it like mcflurry
i got my new set of specs today
i look a total nerd in them but dad wont let me spend much on them as punishment
rats
the frames only costed RM50
o well
life goes on
thats all for today
damn boring day

10 things i want to do before i fully reach adulthood...

1. eat a whole bar of mozzarella cheese at one go

2. sleep the whole day and laze around for a whole week

3. go to genting and play the whole day and sleep in the 5 star rooms

4. watch astro non-stop

5. watch all my fav movie reruns at one go while eating pizza @ popcorn

6. tell every single attractive guy i see at the mall that he is cute.. puberty is a weird thing

7. eat a whole bar of chocolate/bag of chips/tub of baskin robbins ice-cream/TGI friday's chocolate chip cookie ice-cream sandwich/starbucks @ coffee bean chocolate ice blended on my own

8. visit england and listen to british accents all day

9. meet artemis fowl and get a handshake}I'll never wash my hands, i swear, meet howell jenkins, meet lestat, meet sam vimes, meet vetinari, meet rincewind, meet fay, meet kurogane, meet carlisle, meet keanu reeves, meet jared leto, meet gerard way, meet tyson ritter, meet ulquiorra... ugh... i wanna meet so many ppl... XP in the flesh of course...

10. lose weight

haha , of course, it is want, not really do. by the time i reach adulthood, i would, hopefully, have more sense not to do these stuff.. But i dont want to grow up anyway... 3 of the things i wish to do involves food while i still wish to lose weight...

we.... lost..

Aw...
If only we got the opposition in today's debate
Coz we got TONS of stats for that...
Anyways...
I went to duty this morning as usual and rushed down to the prefect's room to get my stuff and the coats...
Somebody took my coat as mentioned yesterday >I dunno who
so i had to take Li Ling's coat...
I was just a reserve so it was merely a safety precaution..
then su qing, emily and i piled into pn saw's car while the rest went into pn Yeoh's 'dinosaur' which has buzz lightyear and woody the cowboy plastered over the windows.
We reached Hamid Khan at around 8 and just hung around surveying the alien environment..
and we saw ppl carrying dictionaries and we were all 'we didn't bring a dictionary!'
Then we were led to a table in the canteen and food was already placed there for us..
I ate a donut and gave su qing the spring roll coz i was suspiciuos that it contained octupus or sotong..
Nick was already opening a packet of nasi lemak when noel went 'you could get stomach ache eating spicy stuff in the morning'
So nick opted for the donut and spring rolls but weng sheng just continued eating the nasi lemak...
but he is just a reserve while nick is the third speaker so that was okay
Then jia, nick, noel {the 3 main speakers, weng sheng and i}reserves were led to the teachers room cum debate room for the 1 hour quarantine
Then the stewards burst in when we had made ourselves comfortable and said it was the wrong room
okaaay..
Then we were sent to the science lab..
Then the stewards burst in again...
We all chorused 'Wrong room again?'
'No, you all have to go de, debate about to start'
We all stared at them
it wasn't even an hour yet
but nick said oh well, no choice
Then the stewards went back to enquire and told us we had an hour
scared us...
then while everyone was busy memorizing, weng sheng and i thinking about POIs
Noel started singing 'chariots of fire' under his breath
Nick was all dude, shut up lah..
Then peace and quiet reigned until noel started singing 'the lion sleeps tonight'
We let him be lah
We went to the debate room at 10am
We were the guv while hamid Khan was opposition
Noel started off fine but was a bit unsure and stuttering at the end.
so far so good
the opposition leader wasn't that good and didn't answer our POIs at all
he accepted them but just didn't answer what we asked..
and he said that husband and wife were ununited by marriage
weird, he was suppose to be pro- marriage
then came jia's turn
she was great
then the second opposition speaker POIed her
he was stuttering and couldn't finish it
so she dismissed him
that guy had a crush on her
he was making eyes at her and totally stopped in his speech when jia looked at him
haha
we had a laugh at her expense..
then when all seemed lost and uncertain
it was nick's turn
he was awesome man
i couldn't believe he lost his temper last year
he was cool as a cucumber and when the opposition POIed him and was really aggresive and annoying,
he went 'patience, patience' like he was teaching a padawan or something
haha
We felt he did an awesome job, what more he went in without a script
then the third opposition speaker came
he is a total jerk and loser
he condemned our stats and called them fake
he sneered at jia saying that her pronounciation was not, i quote, collek
helo? it is 'correct' not collek
he strutted around and his grammar stinks like an unwashed privy during summer
he turned the debate into a circus du freake
and they won
life is just such a fair, wonderful thing, isn't it?
and that 3rd speaker asked for our stats later for their next match
after saying our stats were fake
nice boy, eh?
they shouted and threatened while we were polite and unruffled
their grammar and pronounciation stunk to the heavens while our pronounciation and grammar were good, with very few wrong pronounciations due to the twist of the tongue.
it was a pretty close fight on points and info, i admit.
after the anouncement of the result, pn yeoh asked the judges why heng ee lost.
u know what the judge said?
someone had to win.
even they admitted that we were extremely close
if only we had gotten opposition
we would have slaughtered them..
o well
we went back at 12.45pm on pn yeoh's dinosaur...
nick and noel were disappointed
this is their last year after all
anyway, we are all getting pizza on friday
yay
Chong Hwa got through to the semi's but lost to convent cause they got the opposition part
o well
that's all for now
still a lil' disappointed though..

Extra!!!

Okay okay
I am panicking!!
What if something went wrong??
DEad dead dead dead
arghhhh!!!

Anyway main purpose of this post is to add in the parts i forgot..
The elocution was nightmarishly horrible
problem is i couldn't wake up...
I forgot my script,
was all over the place
and got forth place...
It has got favourtism written all over it...
I forgot!!!
I was suppose to looose!!!
And yet Pn Saw handed me the RM5 prize money..
even though i was all guilty coz i felt i didn't deserve it,
I still spent the ill gained money on a Mcflurry...
They downsized it!!!
damn...
Took class picture today
Sheryl + Ming stood behind me
was forced to sit down cos now a prefect
wanted to stand in the backrow
no choice had to sit
Some bloody idiot took my prefect coat!!
had to use chuok ying's cos she was absent...
her arms are shorter..
ah well..
Lee Khiam Seng had us shout
'Fertilisation'
instead of 'cheese'
he is the personification of gross..
ming and sheryl are gonna have victory signs on their heads...
ah well...
NIE project!!
=.=....
boring...

Hi!! Long time no see...

Okay, I've been pretty busy soo... I haven't really gotten around to blogging until now...
Tomorrows the debate
DAH DUH DAH DEH DAH!! *maniac playing the organ like those old dracula movies*
Yeah, so tomorrow is like for the senior debators, Nick, No and Jia {no permish to put their names}
and it will be our turn NEXT year..
Don't really look forward to that.
oh well, no choice...
Well, it has been pretty busy but damn boring...
Tuesday... What did i do? Can't recall...
Anyway, we stayed back till 3pm everyday till thursday...
Friday was Awful, stupid marching..
Kenny was yanking on my arm every few sec to check if my arms were glued to my sides like they were supose to..
They weren't, of course.
Aft that, i was so tired that i skipped chinese tuition..
Whee...
then we went to have Baskin Robbins ice-cream, Aunt Vivian treated us yay!
I had the cookie dough one cause i've been craving cookies the whole week..
And I've started waiting for the school bus near Wei Khong's house cause i was sick of standing in the bus...
Wei khong is as reliable as a bottle of petrol in a bush-fire when it comes to saving seats for angelo and i.
Yay, I get to skip school tomorrow for the debate!! ahaha...
I hope Jia's sore throat is getting better, i don't want to replace Jia...
Drink loads of honey, Jia!!! Get Well NOW!! XPPPP
Then on Saturday, I had to go for the mock debate at school...
Damn, there weren't any harmonica practice that day and that is Hard to come by!
Anyway, it was Cheng Beng and only Orchestra Cina, Tai Chi and Symphony had activities..
In the midst of an intense debate, the speaker *we have it in every classroom for anouncements* started blaring out Negaraku in segments.
It sounded like this:
Singles do not have to worry about...
*Tanah tumpahnya darahku~*
Married ppl have to...
*Hidup~ Bersatu dan*
And it was really freaky because it wasn't like continuous but in segments
So it would be totally quiet, then
DARAHKU RAKYAT HIDUP
then silence...
Then there was also the negeri song and the school song...
Creepy...
What more it was Cheng Beng...
Ah well....
Back to today..
My glasses snapped at the side..
Okay, yesterday i was soooo tired, i pengsan straight without turning off the lights or taking off my glasses
Then i slept with it beneath me..
so it snapped..
So i didn't go on the bus bcause dad was fixing it...
Pretty senget but okaylah...
But i got another one made..
Prefer the old pair..
Today, mum banged into a calculative buggers car.
Crazy idiotic bugger..
Just a scratch *Really! Just a scratch* and the mad woman wanted RM 100 to repaint the car!
And all the time she was laughing away and asking my mum
How leh?
Gila!
But my mum forked it out anyway..
She shud have punched the crazy woman..
Then, while we were eating at the foodcourt, the crazy calculative woman (call her ccw) came up to us and was all
Miss arh, you won't lapor to balai right?
I wanted to stranggle her
Helo! we paid u de remember?!
That was wat my mum said, but in a polite way..
My mum was obviously very upset and distraught, anyone with half a brain would have seen that..
But nooo, the ccw kept on persisting and wanted us to jamin that we wont report...
I was so angry, I shouted
It's just a scratch!!
And she was all big scratch small scratch, still a scratch
I was so mad that i was speechless and could only say
Please go away, leave us alone
Then she said
Why u so rude one?! So rude you!
And she was trying to see my school badge but i didn't have one (i was still in my uniform).
Crazy insane ccw!
i mean, it is just a small scratch on the bumper!!!
I could just kill her...
She is so obviously an opportunist
She drives a Proton Wira, car number PFF somthing something
Long hair, keeps laughing when she sees a prey
If u see her, stay away, dangerous criminal.
And tell her to brush up on her english language skills
ah well....
Nothing much de..
Wish us luck for tomorrow!!

Whee... Check out the mp3 player >>>>

I've placed some of the songs i am currently enjoying and some all time favourites...
Today has been an awful day
Wei Khong wasn't on the bas, thus we had no where to sit
Then, i got a sit..
As i was blissfully falling asleep, the guy sitting next to me started leaning over..
O-kay, that was awkward...
Angelo was standing against my sit...
O-kaay, I was stuck...
Then, the guy's head hit my shoulder..
I obviously couldn't karate chop him, that wasn't very polite...
After a few minutes in such an awkward position, he woke up and straightened up
Phew, that was close..
Then, the bas started going uphill, and the guy fell asleep and started going downhill again...
As the bus whizzed downhill, his head banged straight into my shoulder..
I was already on the threshold of sleep when that happened..
I jumped and that guy woke up...
Then, i couldn't stop laughing..
It was so embarrassing, because i was trying hard not to laugh, unsuccessfully, and there was this chong ling guy standing there watching me laugh...
Very weird day, obviously.
Everything was great throughout the day...
Until that stupid prefect meeting...
I hate meetings..
I don't need them to psychoanalyze me...
Anyway, they went on and on about our lack of commitment and all the time the team leader was staring at me...
ME??!! Lack COMMITMENT???
HELLO??? I MISSED FAIRLY ODD PARENTS TO PAINT THOSE WEIRD MUSHROOM TOWERS FOR THEM!!
FAIRLY ODD PARENTS!!
ARGHHHH!!!
And she started talking about how some A class students do not get special treatment..
While Staring at ME!!
As if!
I totally skipped recess and lunch to get to their meetings!!
Me?? Lack Commitment???
And I was Starving!!
That totally ruined my day...
X(
Anyway, i have my elocution competition and debate discussion tomorrow...
And i have duties in the morning and during recess...
and calligraphy competition...
Shud i laugh hysterically or cry or scream, i don't know...

Horrible day..

Reporting out.

I noticed...

... that lots of ppl are blogging about exam marks...
o well,
Ming, Karuwe and I have made a bet about how the person with the highest class placing of the three has to treat the other two with Baskin Robbins Ice-cream!
Pretty awesome arrangement, huh?
Thus you can lessen the persons victory by drilling a hole in their pocket
and drown your own misery in sweet, branded frozen confectionery!
Problem is, my total marks are the highest of the 3...
And i was the genius who mentioned the idea..
Blast me and my big mouth
i am slapping meself in the cheek
ah.. well...
I hate PMR!!
what kinda why to prove ones worthiness is that??
and i noticed i blogged trice, including this, today..
that can't be healthy..
o yeah, i forgot to mention in the previous blog
The debator said one must have balls of steel to debate
gross
that must be like so heavy
and gross
if everyone debated, mankind would die out..
eww.. so gross
and science: reproduction is so gross
so disgusting
I can't stand to listen
gross

aww.. shoot

ahh.. i am back to vent my utmost frustration at the fact that no one is online and thus cannot comment on my essay...
Now, i shall start venting:
fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck
fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck
Weird, i don't feel any better
There isn't even anyone pretending to be offline to help..
Curse you, pretending-to-be-offliners!
>whattodo?< >whattodo?< >whattodo?<

I am left with nothing!!
I am a pauper
Nooo!!

hey...
a gullible person just agreed to read my essay!!
YESSS
Wheee..
haha...
i hope she got insurance
it might burn her eyes out

plain bored...

okay, i am really busy but writing essays are damn boring jobs...
so I've decided to blog while me brain is still down..
speaking of down, this stupid pc shut down on its own just now, weird.
and , oh ya, debate is damn hard work.
On the day before we were to discuss the debate i woke up at 4.30am and i slept on 2.30am. So i went to the discussion in a sleep deprived condition because i woke at 6.30am that day. So all the while, i was going wha? wha? wha? during the discussion cause i have never seen or experienced a real parliamentary debate. And we were discussing 'Being single is happier than being married'. Knowing me, i took the singles side.. haha... damn hard, it was.
O weeellll, i got pretty messed up and made a total ass of myself. Then, i had to run off to Tai Chi in the afternoon sun. Don't ask me about how it's like to take attendence one by one while they are practising flying kicks. Trust me, you don't wanna know.
And what else??...
Oh, ya. Yesterday's Earth Hour...
Pretty cool as i was eating instant noodles in the dark, just hope nothing got in there that should have.
Man, that autosave thing is so annoying..
Then i practiced playing piano in the dark with this weird notion that if i can play it in the dark, i can play it blindfolded.. Not a good idea as it turns out.. haha.. sry, neighbours.
weeelll, thats about all...
Man, i don't feel like doing the essay..
Is Dublin really that worth it? Is a laptop really that worth it???
Well, yes..
because Dublin=Artemis Fowl+ Eoin Colfer & Eoin Colfer+ Artemis Fowl=Dublin
and Laptop=laptop which is darn more attractive.. haha
Not that i am going to win that is..
And then there is a blasted thing called hope...
Fish, that stupid teacher bias cum ppl telling me my essay sucks but they didn't dare tell me issue is still stuck in my head and is seriously messing me up...
Is this psychological warfare?

ah... fish..

Okay, I'm starting a blog because Shan suggested it and I'll probably abandon project halfway, just like project facebook & friendster... O well, it's better to start on a darker note haha XP... I am still awake at this time of morning because i can't find any evidence or points to support debate 'Aptitude is the key to success', so if anybody has got any idea, help. Feeling utterly depressed and let down due to the fact that Ming, my friend, mentioned during cross country run today that the English teacher is biased... towards me. Wohoo, lovely way to start the day, with someone telling ya your english results are probably a hoax to ensure the safety of mankind... Whee.. Then, up pops Karuwe, anuzzer friend, and tells me the previous teacher was also biased towards me... Wonderful, now all my results are fake and I'm living a lie and my dad is a muslim disguised as a freedom fighter in hawaii. Anyway, Jeanne, my cousin, told me to tell them to fish (f word, you get the idea) off... There you have it, Ming, I officially didn't say that cause if it is on the net, it's true and you can't beat it girl... haha O well, damn sleepy. Fish the debate. Good nite, anybody...