At long last....

Drum rolls yadayad skip the whole routine

Let it be known here,
loud and clear,
upon thy ear,
(or upon thy eyes since its here)
that i am pregnant.

no i tell a universe sized untruth

but let it stew

for aft this nothing shall seem as horrendous or foul

every news shall smell as roses (or look as roses, what thy heckth)

for i am a technophobe

not a biggie surprise since i've been absenth frometh thy scene for many a month

because to be honestly, brutally, painfully frank or in this case chiou yih with you, there is practically nothing 'up' or interesting happening right now in my life and i hate signing onto the blog and realizing for myself that i have no life.

Thus i have decided to enclose myself in a bubble where no information of any kind can remind me of my abnormality or open my eyes to see the freak i am.

Like, whatever.

not that anyone noticed that i have mysteriously disappeared from the face of the electronic world so maybe i should just curl up and die shall i? shall i????

after pmr i have been floundering around with no directions, no aims or goals nothing. its like life is finally over. For me that is.

and i have been informed that i shall die when i am 18 by a blockbuster. how optimistic my life is turning out to be.

i shall die, talentless, no contribution to the universe except for a mega sized carbon footprint to commemorate my meaningless existence.

I have prepared a list of What To Do Come 2012

1st phase
Try to find a way to save earth, after all humans are reasonable, intelligent creatures who will give up their lovely comfortably mundane lives to see reason for the sake of the greater good... and fail miserably in this attempt.

2nd phase
scream Why cruel world??? Why????

3rd phase
Fall into brain dead form of depression, droll on the carpets, go 'Waerghhh?!' when in contact with external stimulus, walk with knuckles dragged on the ground, the whole zombie packaged deal.

4th phase
blame past generation for the impending doom, mumble to oneself a little, go insane, cackle, talk evilly about others to pet (if no pets, talk to yourself, it works too) giggle uncontrolably, etc. Once tired of being insane proceed to phase 5.

5thPhase
not very sure actually... question the very foundations of religion? humanity? knock yourself out, only 3 more years to go.. haha

i did, you know, question the yadayad of religion.. how do you know its the right one? people have been seeking this Greater Truth for millenias what makes ppl so sure they have got it ? the truth or a truth? or do all religions hold a tiny piece of the puzzle to the Truth?
Whats the point?when we all have to end up dead? if there is a god, why does he or she have to send us down to earth for The Great Test? isn't heaven big enough? and Nirvana. why do we have to undergo suffering? why us? why are we important enough to get a ticket pass to infinite none existence? why everything? why?

lots of whys but not enough becauses.

if every bad deed counts, then the fact that i am breathing air, filling it with carbon d, killing 0.000001% of earth with every alphabet i type, isn't that bad? I'm killing little bits of ppl as i type, as i breathe. Killing, small yet significant.

I feel totally messed up.

i have got a hundred and one things to blog about but compared to this.. what does it matter?

small and insignificant.

signing out..